I'm Tired

I'm tired of people assuming they know me, that they understand my struggle, that they can "relate" to what's going on in my world. I'm tired of trying to get it right in the eyes of others, just t o be ignored. I'm tired of my friends taking what they want from me and moving on... using me up and discarding me. I'm tired of trying to make a difference when you don't believe in change. I'm tired of being the only one working towards something, and having everyone "jump ship" when things don't go right. I'm tired of the same old plan the same old results, the same old shit! I'm tired of people being surprised when they find out that I listen to Rap, or I hate ALL holidays, or that sometimes I just don't give a DAMN! I'm tired of being mistreated, and then apologizing for standing up for my self. I'm tired of the deadlines, the drama, the stress. I'm tired of coming up with new reasons not to give up. I'm tired of people telling me I have so much to be grateful for, or that I'm fortunate...YOU DON'T KNOW ME!! I'm tired of the runaround, the lies, the deception, the hurt, the heartache... I'M JUST TIRED of it all... I'm tired of not accomplishing my goals. tired of not achieving my dreams. Tired of being complacent... I'm tired of explaining myself to you.