Like I'm Not Enough!
(This post has been sitting in my drafts for the past two weeks...but as these feelings come to a head I feel the need to "let it go")
Have you ever had someone or something make you feel inadequate? Maybe your "friend" who gives you that sideways look as you pitch your "big idea"? Maybe your Mother-in-law who constantly criticizes EVERYTHING you do...Maybe your spouse who, even though you know it, doesn't affirm their love for you with those simple words "I love You", I Need You" "Thank you".
For the past two weeks I've been trying to come to terms with my feelings of not being enough. Almost overnight I've turned into this little scared, insecure little thing.
I stood for over an hour staring at myself in the mirror trying to figure it out...is my hair too "kinky"?, are my lips too broad?, maybe my cheekbones are too high...Do I need to loose more than 20 lbs? Should I get my teeth whitened?, maybe its my un-pedicuredtoes...What could it be that prevents people from loving, trusting, being faithful, honest, caring , REAL with me???
I searched the Internet on how to be a better _____________. But in the end I still feel small.
I know exactly what event caused these feelings to re-surface...but i don't care to share the details at this time - just know that I was hurt, and it's left me feeling like I'm not enough!
2 comments:
Understand because of Christ you are more than enought! You're nt here to get validation from poeple or things; they fail you every time! Search the Lord and lean to what He says about you. You are fearflly and wonderfuly made. He nows you better than you know yourelf. Seek Him for those deepest answers to your life. He is the only obe with the satisfying answers!
Mrs. Davis,
I wholeheartedly admire your outlook on life and especially your way to reassure people with God's promises. Thank you for your comment.
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