Happy Birthday Mom

Today is my Mom's Birthday. She would have been 51 today.

She died.

June would be 3 years that she's been gone.

May (Mother's day) is kinda hard for me. I don't know why, but it is. My mother & I never had a close relationship... Quite honestly we never had a relationship at all. I guess I'm dealing with a mixed bag of emotions today. I'm kinda sad that she's gone, but relieved that she is.. When I say that don't just assume I'm some kind of terrible person who finds pleasure in death, that's not the case. My mom (wow, I don't think I've used that word in forever to describe her) had been on drugs since I was 7 years old - her death is a relief to me. I know that she's in a better place (She did get right with God before her passing). I dunno...I'm rambling... I'm getting emotional,and I'm done.

Happy Birthday Mom!