How do you cope?
With life when there’s some shit at every turn waiting to knock me down and drag me out… Emotionally…Psychologically…Physically? How do I continue “doing me”, trying to remain positive, and become successful when my world starts to collapse from the inside out. How is it possible to function “normally” when all I see is dysfunction? How did I become the “statistic”. How did I become the “dysfunctional” one in a family of addicts, killers, liars… Hopelessness, Despair, Desperation, all becomes a part of my family name, a “legacy” I am left to carry. How do I cope? Am I to turn a blind eye, and pray that disaster doesn’t knock at my door? Or do I jump in head first and “fight” what seems to be a loosing battle… How do I fight something when I’m not even sure its worth fighting for.. Cry for something that’s been cried for time and time again, carry a burden that I’ve been carrying for much too long. How do I cope? Knowing that it could’ve been me. Was almost me. GOD, WHY WASN’T IT ME!!! How do you deal with your soul screaming out for help? How do you remain strong, resilient, determined when your e dying on the inside? When your emotional stability is shaky, when your psychological well-being is questionable. How do you deal with knowing that you’ve encountered a situation that has no solution, no remedy, no nothing… my grandmother’s tears, my uncle’s burden, my aunt’s situation, my father’s issues, my mother’s lies, have become who I am… who I am becoming…
How do I cope?
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