Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Day 21: Ask for Help

I have Pride issues.  I'm not afraid to admit it.  Sometimes my issues of pride get in the way of me actually accomplishing what I need to do.  There has been numerous occasions where I went without, simply because I was too prideful to ask for help.  I assumed (and kinda still do) that to ask for help is a sign of weakness.  In my mind, I should be able to handle anything thrown at me.  My mother was on drugs, my dad was a womanizer, I practically had to raise myself...what's the big deal if I need help paying a bill or need a ride somewhere?  I mean, that's small stuff compared to some of the things I've overcome. 

I guess I need to grow up...

Anyways, today I asked for help.  I almost started to cry when doing so, but I maintained all composure.  I had been hitting a wall on a problem for the past year, and things started to get out of control.  I was loosing too much!  I asked for help.  I thought I would be belittled or ridiculed for needing help, but I wasn't.  I need to do that more often.

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