Evolve...Yeah Right!

"If you only tackle what you know, you'll never grow"

I read these words as I walked into class last Wednesday, and couldn't help but laugh out loud...If you only knew...

Wow! I must be growing cause Lord knows I have no clue what the heck is going on in class. I got my second exam back today and nearly fell out of my seat when I saw the score... A 68?!? what the heck ? It's a shame, but this test was better than the first one, in which I only got a 20...

Stop Laughing, and shaking your head.. It's not funny and I ain't stupid...Yes, I know ain't isn't proper English, but I'm talking 'bout math . LOL

So I'm sitting here wondering what's up... I mean I ain't no dummy...but when it comes to math I loose every time. I just cant figure it out. Yeah I can Count, I can divide and multiply too...but anything outside of that is a loosing battle. But then again, I've never been any good at math. In elementary school I struggled with those stupid greater than and less than signs wondering for hours, no days which number the fish ate first. In middle school I struggled with fractions and figuring out the LCD, in high school it was the Pythagorean theorem... and lets not even talk about sine, cosine and tangent... Help me Jesus!

Over the years I have been encouraged (mostly by math teachers) to get myself a good calculator and use it, but my problem is that I don't even know what half the symbols mean let alone how or when to use them.

Dangit!@ I must have been dropped on the head as a baby... there's no other excuse. I'm good in science (all areas) , and English (although you'd never know since I almost never speak or write in proper English) I can master art and history geography, even psychology...but Math kicks my but each and every chance it gets!

When I married Kyle, I was convinced that my math woes would be over. In fact that was how Kyle and I connected in college. He was a year ahead of me, and knew math like a champ. He taught (or at least tried to teach me) some general math rules like finding the percentage, or the Lowest Common Denominator.... and I helped him with his English papers... One of two things occurred 1) either he wasn't that good of a teacher/tutor, or 2) I was too busy gazing into his light brown eyes... I think it could have been a little bit of both.

In any event I sit here and I wonder what went wrong and when. Why am I not "evolving" when it comes to math?? WHY LORD WHY??? The first day of class had me tricked.. had me thinking that I knew what the teacher was talking about when in reality I'm clueless.