He Provides...

Even when I am at my most stubborn point, when I dismiss everything EVERYONE says, and I completely tune God out and try to do it myself...He Provides.

This time Monday evening we had no reliable means of transportation. Our station wagon was all effed up with two wheel lugs destroyed, and there was something wrong with the brakes on the van. We were screwed - or so I thought.

We were unable to go food shopping, and I couldn't go to class for two days. I felt trapped..and then I got my Summer II and Fall semester bills in the mail - on the same day at that! I could have broke down right there on my porch. I felt the tears building up, but I had Miles in my arms and I didn't want to cry. I silently cried out to God asking "what's Up", "How Much More" and "Why Now?". He didn't answer..or at least I couldn't hear him.

Then today rolled around. After a night of crying and praying I woke up with a headache. I was in no mood to face the day and seriously wanted to stay in the bed. But I got up, and I got on with my day trying to put the events from the past two days behind me. I was exhausted. Early in the morning I received a phone call from Sherman(a mechanic friend of mine, whom I had not spoken to or seen in over a year) he called to see how I was doing. Said he had been praying for me and wanted to check on me. Talk about being On Time!I told him about everything that's been going on and we prayed...right there on the phone, then he told me to get the car in and he'd fix it for us. What a Blessing!

And later in the day a neighbor of ours noticed that the van was parked for the past two days and wanted to know if everything was okay. He's a single dad who is also an out of work mechanic...he took a look at the van, told us what part to get (which cost $12.99)and fixed it for us. He only charged us $40.00... I'm talking about $63 dollars for a Brake Job!

And(now here's the best part y'all) When I get home I look in the mail and find a letter from the college telling me that I qualify for $6,900 in grants..not Loans, GRANTS!

I know someone was praying for my situation. I don't know who, but Thank You! I guess this is God's way of telling/showing me that he's not done with me yet. Even though my worries are not over and sometimes I lack faith, He still provides...