It's Amazing - A new outlook on those I used to call amily....

It’s Amazing
A new outlook on those I used to call family

It’s amazing that my family, people I have known for most of my life treat me like I’m less than. It’s amazing that the ones that I confide in, turn around and twist my words to their advantage. It’s amazing that I ever considered these people to be my family. It’s scary that my so called family knows less of my “story” than the people I met last year... What the FUCK! It’s disgusting that I ever called you family! You take me for granted, use me up and then throw me to the side when you’re done. I’d go without to help you, but you’d turn your back on me when I’m in need. You’ve bent over backwards to AVOID me… You’ve gone out of your way to talk about me LIKE A DOG! When I’m in need, you ask “where’s you’re PRIDE?”

I’m ashamed that I called you family, I’m ashamed that I once let you into my life, that I shared with you, and cried with you and told you that you were loved. I’m embarrassed to acknowledge that we share some sort of lineage… blood…marriage… I could have gone without…

So as I approach this New Year, I plan on doing so without you! Without your drama, your stress, your bull shit that irks me in every way imaginable… It's Amazing that I've included you in my life this long...