Here we go again.... I wish I could run AWAY!

Something about these counseling sessions with my soon to be ex-husband are very upsetting... excuse me for sounding  - what's the word -  like I don't care, but I honestly don't.  I no longer care about anything, and these counseling sessions are number one on a very long list of shit I could care less about.  I'm about 30 seconds away from calling each parent and telling them that effective Monday they need to find somewhere else to take their child, buying a one way ticket (what ever I can afford, to wherever it will take me) and running the hell away.  so many things about my life piss me off right now.  I'm pissed that I don't have the money I need in my account.  I'm pissed that I didn't enroll in the class I promised myself.  I'm pissed that I'm sitting here caring for a group of kids who's parent's don't give a flying FUCK about.  I'm pissed that my kids will probably eat take out tonight.  I'm pissed that my stupid van overheats and shimmy's everytime I drive it.  I'm pissed that I never have the time, energy , or money to do a fraction of the things that I want to do... and I'm pissed that I have to go to this stupid fucking counseling and talk about shit that has nothing to do with the reason I want a divorce.