Sometimes...

Sometimes I'm alright, I'll Laugh, I'll hold my head up high, I'll even dance and play.
But Sometimes I'm not...

Sometimes I just don't want to be bothered. I don't Care. I don't remember. I'm not effective.
Sometimes I'm not...

Sometime things rub me the wrong way, they set me off, they push me close to the edge. I know, it's mostly my fault because I don't tell you how I feel. I didn't tell you how i feel. I didn't tell you that when you said those things about me that you hurt my feelings. I didn't tell you how when you said those things about my husband jokingly that i was pissed! I didn't tell you that I know that our "between you and me" conversation found its way back to me...I never told you how I felt betrayed about that, and how I'll never trust you again because of that.

But you're my friend, shouldn't you notice that I've changed? Shouldn't you notice that things are not the same between us? our conversations, the time we spend together...

Did you know that sometime you absolutely disgust me? Sometimes I despise you? Sometimes I just hate everything about you! I just wanna smack you, kick you, Punch your stupid little face! Sometimes you make me sick...Can't eat, can't sleep sick! But we're supposed to be friends right??

Somebody told me to forgive you. I should tell you of your offenses. I should tell you just how pissed off you made me! BUT WILL IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE? PROBABLY NOT!

Sometimes I'm alright, I'll laugh, I'll hold my head up high, I'll even dance and play... But today I'm not!