Yesterday I was MAD. Yes I know that dogs get MAD and people get angry, but I was so far beyond human emotions. I literally had to go out in the car and scream.
It's been a while since I was wronged by a "friend" like this. I've been screwed by strangers and even family, but never by a friend. I didn't have alot of friends growing up. I mean I knew alot of people and alot of people knew me, I was well liked but I didn't have alot of friends and its because I don't call everyone my friend. I've know my friends for years, they've met my family, have eaten in my living room, heard me fart, saw me when I was sick, gave me when I had nothing, and laughed at me just to make me understand that I was taking things too serious.
My friends talk me out of doing stupid stuff, but laugh and tell me that they told me so.. They're real and honest... no matter what.
I cried yesterday. That's how mad I was...
I did talk to her and she doesn't seem to know what the hell I'm talking about... says that I'm too sensitive... I told her that I forgive her, but its going to take a while before I trust her again. she cried. I cried.
But I have to move on. I'm not going to put my guard up or start over analyzing each and everything my other friends say/do, I'm not going to start wigging out snapping on people, crying at inappropriate times, go on a hunger strike....
I'm going to forgive her and move on. I'm full of love. I'm passionate I'm caring, I'm giving, I love to laugh, and giggle, and snicker so I'm not going to let what happened between us change that.
By the middle of the day I felt alot better, which may have had something to do with the Hershey's bar Kyle gave me. I went to class and had a wonderful 2 hours. I drove back home blasting George Michael, ate Oxtail, Rice & Cabbage for dinner, talked to Kyle until midnight and fell asleep.
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